I was reading and update of a friend and it had the marvelous quotation of Kramer from the sitcom Seinfeld? ”Do you ever yearn?”  I do think that question sometimes about my yearnings. I sometimes fear that I am moments away from slipping into “comfortable Christianity”. It would make life alot easier if everything was just about going to church on Sundays and Wednesdays and appearing at the men’s fellowships that the church offers and the rest of the days of the week, I just focused on my hobbies (i.e. cooking, reading) and in the other open times just watch tv.    I am taking a limited sabbatical right now and the fear of “comfortable christianity” is one of the things that I am every now and then get anxious about. “Am I slipping?” Then I have to remember that I am on a sabbatical right now and I am supposed to rest. One of the great things about resting is there isn’t any anxious-hurried-drive that motivates me to “advance the kingdom as fast as possible” as if “it all depends on me”. It is a good reminder that the world still spins when I am not active in creating ministry opportunities and that Jesus is still on the throne and salvations are still happening. Then I am reminded that these seasons of rest are for dreaming and feeling and hoping and praying and drawing closer to Him. I have learned a lot about patience and grace and effecitive service just in sitting and waiting and resting. It is pretty nice!  I recognize that though I am not promised tomorrow, or the next five minutes for that matter, yet right now I am able to stand back enjoy God’s panarama of what He is doing, praise Him for His marvelous works and just dream. As I stand back and view His dealings I ask “Where does God have me in this panarama?” Is it in the villages, is it in the city, is it among the homeless, or the prisons or the hospitals, is it with kids, is it with muslims or buddhist, or christians? Many questions, many yearnings, and somehow I rest in the confident hope of the bigness of God and His plans and realize that all my seemingly different desires are all wrapped wholly into His ultimate purpose for Me, and as I rest in His soverigntly, and obey His voice, I will be able to look back upon what used to be my dreams and find out they have become realities.